Avrò cura di Me, Heal Me - In Search of a Cure by Julia Buckley

Avrò cura di Me, Heal Me - In Search of a Cure by Julia Buckley

is an illuminating book published by Marsilio Editori about chronic pain and what it means following steps and advice of common medicine.

Julia was born with a great flexibility. She tells that since she was little she was in grade to do what maybe an artist in a circus would have done.

Under many aspects she appeared magical to other people, although, since little, she started to develop muscular problems and when arrived at the end of high school she felt some pain while walking.

Anyway, her life became brilliant. She became a journalist, and her connections, good and helpful, involve the USA as well.

It was during a work-day, while she was taking her cup of coffee for sipping it, that she felt that something was changed apparently forever in her body system and mainly in her right arm.

She felt that the right arm was sending flames; waves of flames.

A horrible pain she could not control.

That days of work were the first ones in this new reality, where, how nice! she travelled the world reviewing places, and food, etc. Tourism.

She ended the day at 5 o'clock, terrorized by what she was experiencing leaving the boss pretty upset, because the day was not yet complete. But, she wrote just with the left hand, because the right one suffered tremendously.

The day after the family doctor told her that yes, she needed two weeks of rest.

The first part of this book is an odissey involving a lot of chemical substances that, theoretically would have helped her. Julia visited wagons of doctors, from neurologists, psychologists; name a category. Julia has been visited by all of them while the pain didn't pass and exams, every kind of exams (this part so sad) endless.

Not only: some medicines gave her suicidiary insticts. Some doctors told her, that, no it couldn't be true, but it was, and she interrupted the

treatments. They added anti-convulsive because of course they send you in another dimension, just, you lose perception of time, time becomes endless, and you don't have anymore your life in complete  control.

Not only: Julia started to suffer of constipation.

She understood that medicines were winning, destroying her body.

No: she had to find a solution.

Julia describes what happens to the brain when there is a chronic pain situation. It is very interesting. Substantially it's the brain speaking for  the injured part of the body: it's a story of a nano-second and the brain activate that emergency-state and people feel pain. A situation must be sorted out it says the brain "emitting" pain, so that people can listen to it, taking remedy.

Terrorized by the idea of co-living with a pain horrible like this, Julia in the while lost her job, becoming a  "disable" and joining a group of other eleven people for treating chronic pain.

Theoretically all that people with chronic pain were all optimistic at the beginning, tells Julia, but at the end they were forlons,destroyed, because who followed them reassured that the situation wouldn't never have changed and what they had to do was to try to cope with the pain that they felt. For all their existence.

Julia said no.

She didn't want to live constantly with this pain and she started a trip, around the world, for trying to search for a healer.

Thinking at God and at a miracle became an obsession.

Julia was not exactly a girl particularly religious, but this condition implied that maybe the answer was not where everyone was looking at.

She started to search for a healer.

She visited a british church where there is a miraculous  water in grade of healing. The priest told her words she remembered later as well.

But Julia, thanks also to her connections and her job as reporter

went wherever you can imagine, including Lourdes and Pietrelcina.

She didn't develop a great idea of Lourdes, because of the great buiness that there is behind, to her point of view, with too much expensive masses and candles but the idea of the hospital created by San Pio in Puglia, Italia, conquered her.

Everyone working at the Casa Sollievo della Sofferenza wanted by San Pio receives a book tells Julia more or less long 160 pages with all the guidelines that must be followed.

And, for what tells Julia La Casa Sollievo doesn't have the aspect of a common hospital, but a place where, realistically, there is a lot of serenity. San Pio made also miracles, but more than miracles, insists Julia maybe what it is important to do is to give attention to patients because they would better their clinical conditions.

Because there are no answers with common medicines most people use other alternative treatments, excellent or not, remedies, because just few realities, as adds Julia uses the guidelines of the hospital wanted by San Pio da Pietrelcina.

People with this state of things, will continue to search for gurus,  spiritual healers discouraged by unsatisfying answers of the common medicine.

The trip of Julia involves the USA and the locality of Joshua Tree, where she met Charmayne a charismatic lady. Maybe she didn't heal but her brain distracted by the cries of Charmayne stayed relaxed regarding the pain it constantly felt for some time.

She went in the South of the Usa, she met a sexy healer in Los Angeles, an angel believer and with him she improved a lot. She also went to Bali, and searched for the healer of Elizabeth Gilbert, (Eat, Pray, Love) but he was too old. A relative read her hand.

And, at the end of this long trip, where she tried everything, everything, Julia healed from this pain.

I did the same with my mother, when tired of common medicines, for her back pain.

I brought her by a healer who cured most of my neighbors including a lot of italian known, famous people; her back is feeling better. What I was searching in fact also in that case was for her a spiritual wellness, associated at a physical one.

Personally per two decades I suffered of a big pain because when I wore the brace it devastated my mouth, tendons, muscles and bones

without sorting out the problem: a beauty smile. Never had that one, unfortunately. Sufferance yes, a lot after the brace. I was 20 when I wore it and after that it was a constant pain.

No only: when my tonsils inflammated my doctor constricted to use some tools for seeing it, because the tongue was deviated as well.

Anyway when I went to Aprilia last April my niece called an healer specialized in manipulations, Shiatsu, for my mom. After her session, when he saw my face he immediately said me: let's sort out this problem. In less than a few seconds that pain gone, the face in asset, my tonsils  visibles!

I tried in the past with a lot of dentists, and everyone assured me my mouth was fine in that way; I said I felt pain but they said me that it wasn't a relevant pain.

Some dentists said me  that I was "too old" biologically, 40 years, for re-putting a brace and sorting out the problem. Better a bite.

At the end I sorted out the problem! Hooray! And I chew

some chewingum now, a luxury I avoided  for not inflammate a lot the muscles, but that I missed a lot. And pain is over.

Beautiful book for whoever suffering of chronic pain is in search of alternative answers.

I thank Marsilio for the physical copy of this book.

Anna Maria Polidori